Amy Winehouse’s Ex Acknowledges His Role in Her Death

Blake Fielder-Civil, the ex-husband of Amy Winehouse, is reflecting on her untimely passing nearly 15 years later.

“I’ve always taken responsibility for my actions. If I have done something, I admit it,” Fielder, 43, shared on the Tuesday, March 17, episode of the “We Need to Talk” podcast. “I’m managing — I’m not okay — but I’ve come to terms with the fact that I played a role.”

He added, “While others were involved, Amy had her own choices, and acknowledging that is not disrespectful. Despite her struggles with alcohol, she chose to continue.”

Winehouse, who was married to Fielder from 2007 to 2009, passed away from accidental alcohol poisoning in July 2011, at just 27 years old.

“Do people really believe I forced Amy into drugs? That’s simply not the case,” Fielder emphasized on the podcast. “During some of her darkest days of addiction, I was in jail for a pub fight, trying to defend my friends. At that time, our addictions were intertwined. I had more control over the amount we used.”

According to Fielder, he managed the drugs they consumed together.

“I would say, ‘We don’t need any more than this. This is sufficient,’” he recalled. “While I was incarcerated, Amy’s dealer was still a constant presence in her life, and I was aware of that. … I accept my responsibilities, but I wasn’t the person facilitating her daily needs.”

Fielder filed for divorce from Winehouse in 2009 after successfully completing a rehab program. However, he relapsed after reconnecting with another treatment facility patient. Winehouse offered to support him in his recovery.

“We didn’t view ourselves as ‘addicts’; instead, it was like, ‘Amy needs to do this today, and we have to take a half-hour to regain some normalcy,’” Fielder explained. “Of course, during withdrawal, you feel incredibly far from normal.”

Fielder and Winehouse’s relationship fluctuated until her passing.

“Unfortunately, when Amy passed, I was in jail,” he recalled, referring to his 32-month sentence for burglary and possession of an imitation firearm in June 2011. “We were still discussing the possibility of reconciling. The moment I realized that wouldn’t happen was when I learned of her death.”

While incarcerated, Fielder and Winehouse regularly communicated through calls and letters, until her responses suddenly ceased.

“When I tried to call her, prison officers came and informed me of her passing,” he mentioned. “I was in my cell when they took me to an office and showed me the news headline; I thought it was a hoax. They immediately reassured me, ‘It’s not true. Don’t worry.’”

Fielder described hearing about Winehouse’s death from various news outlets as his “worst nightmare.”

“My cellmate at the time was a really great guy. He had seen it on the news and hugged me,” Fielder remembered. “I broke down in tears, and he started crying too. It was surreal: I found support from someone I’d known for only a few weeks. That was the only comfort I had in losing such an immense part of my life. A significant piece of my heart was gone, and I would never see or hear from her again. It was overwhelming.”

Fielder has since moved forward in his life.

“I’m happy now and in love, yet I can say without hesitation that Amy would still be a part of my life today. I would have met her for a drink or coffee,” he reflected. “The divorce didn’t mark the end for us; the arguments didn’t seal our fate. Nothing was strong enough to truly separate us. Only we understood what we shared.”